mission !

i have mission to be accomplish
guess wat???
is in my list for so freaking many years
people who know me also know what i scare of
FAT
sigh
still haunting me
:(

AND ALSO
both of my cousins are going to get marry this year
end of the year and next year
so still got time for me to SLIM down
!!!!!
arghhhh

i die die this time also must successful
i wanna get thin
" die also must die pretty"
and
" although i am not overweight , but i wanna be underweight"
FML
wtf
kill me
pls
:(

p/s : the feelings i have now is like when i think about foods, i wanna vomit
erghhh