ok i am such a lousy blogger i just want to say how i hate and love DECEMBER the love is that is holidays !! celebrations and celebrations !!! is christmas is new year ! but the hate is that i spent money like hell like water oni debts debts not good not good but overall we earn and we spent this is wat we live for
just a little update from me here spent a very different chritmas with the ssd we went for ROAD TRIPS ! weee how i love road trip
drove all the way up to north ipoh-kuala perlis-penang ipoh for DIM SUM !!
kuala perlis to attend su shin's sis er jie wedding dinner she is soooo pretty envy envy
penang of course is for foods !! and we got presents from queen !!! and Christmas candy from kei sweet sweet
have lots of fun ! oh oh
tomoro is my cousin weddings !!! yay excited the first wedding in CHOO family congrats to all the " babi" haha
no one can predicts future not u not me not him not her or anyone
is depends on our fate and what we choose things got so wrong recently i dono weather is that i am to sensitive
i hate it when there is argument when i tink that something is the problem and the other tink that it is not the problem it goes the other way round to0 when i tink that it is not the problem but the others think that it is a big prob
sigh
sometimes when thing gets into argument automatically it leads to misunderstood
well jus say life goes on for me
i'll choose to go with the flow
hopefully it flow to some happiness and happy ending
yesterday i have some serious conversations with the boy
nonono not some serious arguing conversations well is on world HISTORY lol
well i can say that i quite enjoyed discussing with him about the world history i found out there , i really dont know much about it
like "atomic bombings of Hiroshima and Nagasaki" we were curious about weather the man who flew the plane and dropped atomic bomb will have psychological effect or not ,killing 140000 ppl so the boy google
too our surprise this is what he said (according to source from Wikipedia) "Tibbets(the fella name ) expressed no regret regarding the decision to drop the bomb. In a 1975 interview he said: "I'm proud that I was able to start with nothing, plan it, and have it work as perfectly as it did... I sleep clearly every night." In March 2005, he stated, "If you give me the same circumstances, I'd do it again."
obviously he live happily ever after he died at the age of 92 wtf
and for that we dont bother to find out the one who dropped the bomb in Nagasaki maybe he too live happily after he killed about 80000 ppl
and so we talk about
Hitler the boy quite like this guy wtf as we all know he is famous for his cruelty and stuff this man is really the man he killed like 6 millions jews in WW2 !!!!!! wow thats alot wey i really dont know about this until the boy told me but we all know why Hitler hates the jews so much fair enuff every story behind this cruelty killing have reasons there is this REVENGE thingy in Hitler he is a quite a brilliant men indeed we all know is not easy to kill 6 millions people hmnnnn
after Hitler we move to NORTH KOREA !!! haha
seriously i dono ANYTHING at all about NORTH KOREA but before we move on to the interesting facts happening in north korea we need to know their leader first
the great general * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * KIM JON-IL!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA damn ugly lor !!!!!
a proper pic of him
the great leader isolate the people and his country from the entire world KIM JON-IL very much brainwash them
they hate the AMERICANS very very much no internet, no outside world media, no nothing wat is happening out of North Korea
educations and health care are totally way far behind compare to those developed country or country that are still developing Many hospitals and clinics in North Korea now lack of essential medicines and equipment, running water and electricity and most probably foods they are all very poor most of the children lacks of nutrition and are all very very skinny
but no doubt that NORTH KOREA is one of the 4th largest army in the world and they are very active in active nuclear and ballistic missile weapons programs because the leaders perhaps same goes to the poeple are living in fear they believe that other then people in the north korea , every single human in this world are threat to them.
international trade is highly RESTRICTED but their great leader he himself indulged in luxuries import he has 20000 private movies collections,100 imported limousines ,and is one of the largest single customers of HENESSY COGNAC in the world WTF and he restricted his fella people in NORTH KOREA from it
moreover there is not much of people get to escape from north korea and there are actually people who wanted to run away and escape from the country by risking their life
many of the north korea people escape to china because it is jus separated by a river but they must not caught by the police in china ,they will send them back to N.korea and put them in prison . if they are lucky enuff to reach the Loas border and finally to THAILAND border they will surrender themself and thailand authorities will send them to south korea instead North korea and they can start a new life there.
they can actually escape to south korea too is nearer but it is very very hard for them to be sucessfully crossed the border, no river no ntg jus few steps but there is this killing electric fence u can zap to dead in only few seconds
here is the video of a women who try to escape but too bad la sigh
the curious to know more about the NORTH Korea they boy told me that National Geogrphic do have undercover about north korea !!!!
Dr.RUIT
the team together with The good doctor , DR.RUIT entered North Korea with the plan to perform over 1,000 such eye operations in just a 10 FREAKING DAYS !!! they only allowed them to stay for 10 days !!! North Korea often refuses permission for such humanitarian missions because of not wanting to give the impression that its people lack anything but - amazingly - they did give Dr. Ruit and his team full permission to carry out these operations.
well through out the 10 days of missions they are all followed by the goverment people even before they depart from NEPAL, becuase dr.ruit is from nepal it self.
(for ur informations even when we normal people entered the country they are ppl following us so is not a very good place to visits la )
Dr.Ruit missions and goals is that he wants to offer free eye surgery to patients in poor countries who have gone blind because of cataracts, becuase it is very expensive to have this surgery and north korea itself dont even have the proper equipment.
well, he manage to have surgery for more then 1000 people in jus ten days but sad to say , they never even say thank you to DR.RUIT of his generousity when they have thier eye sight back
at the moment they open their eyes , they bound and cry and praise thier great leader potraits honestly to say he contribute nothing to this but DR.RUIT and his team
is quite interesting isn't it??? to answer all my curiousity the boy sent me link on youtube yay !!!
if u guys are interested to know what it inside the mysterious NORTH KOREA good news !! we can watch in youtube !! it explains it all ( we hardly have the opportunities to discover bits by bits on what is happening in there)
here you go this is jus the first part, they are total of 5 parts enjoy !!
i use to be very noob in things got to do with IT but after i started to work as printer promoter in digital mall i have to admit that i learned quite alot with things got to do with IT
and recently i work as digi broadband promoter
my hse is currently using tm net , streamyx before this i use to be very satisfied with the service and the speed cos i do not know wat is the feeling of high speed cos i tot every service is the same but NO !!!! cos i normally dont use it for dl movies or song so there is not a big problem la although i need to wait for youtube to load
but recently i have to agree with everyone that streamyx is extremely sucks !!! slow like hell compare to digi broadband which they provide the speed of min 700 kbps up to 5-6 mb provided the are we are staying is under high speed coverage area too bad sg buloh is in still under low speed coverage which is the EDGE
too prove it i have the results tested by speedtest
streamyx (my hse internet connection speed now) vomit blood sigh
digi broadband (tested at one utama high speed coverage area)
last but not least
JAPAN internet connection (last time use to be faster then this speed as the boy claims,but still faster then malaysia la)
well MALAYSIA BOLEH :)
p/s: i am not promoting digi broadband though i am working for them now ,jus wanna compare the speed that i am currently using now compare to others
the latest me wearing lucas spec nice? wanna get onr for myself hehehe
anyway
the reasons i am not blogging recently is because there are nothing to blog about and i am super lazy to laods my krabi rips pics i blog about when i really really got the time
is good that i am back to class and on my schedule back in college and stick closely to my quiz, assignments, tutorials yada yada
and with another issues i really wanna get out of here asap like always
wanted a whole new experience of new environments and peoples why am i still stuck here ! i wanna leave maybe i am jus not so lucky
i always got so jealous seeing my frens leaving one by one to abroad some might say nah is not as good as u tink but is because u have experienced it and i wants to have the chance of saying that too well oh well thats life
the ugly truth
anyhow something on my side which i feel happy because the boy is back holidays for a month the reason i'm not blogging at all cos i need to grab and spent every mins available with him before he leave again end of the months i am treasuring all my time with the boy
have u guys ever felt a month pass by superly fast 11 days before he fly back awhhhhh
been very very bz no time to update and edit those photos
i need to get back to class already is been already 2 weeks since class started and i have not even attend any yet the reason is is becuase i still got no idea on wat subjects to take seems so lost
aiks but is all good for now i have decided on wat to take and jus move forward
today i am going to blog about my hair !!! my hairstyle for the past 2 years
(p/s: get ready for my camwhore pics )
i have decided to blog about my hairstyle because i am in dilemma now to cut my hair short again or not???? sigh
oh ya i took of my extension few weeks ago hmnnnn
my hair now is in a very terrible and critical condition not long not short can die
last time when i started my college for diploma ermm i tink i change my hairstyle every semester hahha
let me show u guys
this is my long hair, yes all this while i keep my hair long cos i tink my face is too round to cut short hair, and i look ugly in short hair
ok let me show u guys my biggest nightmare and fear in my entire life the biggest mistake and decision i had made in my entire life
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yes !!! so fugly i noe i never perm my hair again !!! i mean in this auntie kind of small curlz sigh
then i tak boleh tahan i go wash straight after one semester hahaha yes after one semester , i manage to tahan for one semester wtf
my hair after i wash straight a bit with bangs ermmm
then my hair after that kenot tahan with that bangs so i pull everything up, so ugly , so dry , so out of shape i really dono wat to do with it but i still manage to keep it for quite some times hahaha
this pic taken during my birthday, that cake made by lucas himself though the cake look ugly here but very delicious hehehe
at this moment , i usually clips my bangs and tie up my hair everytime when i go out haih cos so fan la need to put cream and stuff and not nice jor the curlz
FINALLY !! i really beh tahan
i straighten my hair !!! happy
yay my long long straight hair very satisfied with this hair
ok then i tink i bored with my long long straight hair so i go zap zap cut shorter fringe and abit layer
then one day i go to my aunt fren's salon i tink i jus wanna cut short abit la cos bored with my long hair again ma i tink i tell her below shoulder a bit ma but to my horror she cut till very very short, i got really really piss off ! and almost cry out and almsot got an heart attack haih my precious hair
i feel damn ugly but after a few days i started to like my new hair hahaha wtf
some say i look better in short hair hehe
so until this lenght i actually feel very bored again !!! yes again with this lenght so i go cut again hahaha this time ermmm shorter
this consider very short edi la then one month or more i tink my firnge grew longer so i go back to salon again to zap zap again and this time EVEN SHORTER !!!
i'm lovin it !!!! seriously this is the best short hair i have ever had i feel like wanna get back to this hairstyle lo sigh how? back to this?
i manage to love my short hair for quite some times over the months but this time i hate the colour of my hair so
i dye back to dark brown, like black brown hahaha
so i cannot realli remember when i dye back my hair to brown agian with highlights oh ya i tink is before the cny so i got back my light brown colour with some highlights
this pic taken cny new years eve i still love my hair !!!
from here onwards i hate my hair how sad from this time i keep bugging my sis and bestie and anyone i noe that i needed hair extension wtf but in malaysia is too expensive and the hair sylist dont suggest me to do straightening cos he say it will look more ugly he asked me to "tahan" so i got to wait lo
so this is my hair ,taken in this year march when i am waiting for my flight to HK !!! haha still look nice a bit la sure la, everyday need to blow blow blow fan dou sei
remember i wanna go for hair extension ! yes i finally did it becuase i went to zhu hai , china , when i am in MACAU so finally my hair is long again !!! with nice curlz :)
yay extension jus love it love it :)
look dry but is ok la who cares rite???
then my fringe got so ugly agian, then i decided to go cut my fringe and got bangs again !! oh is mistake again , so while waiting for my fringe to grew longer i cliped it up no pics for that cos is ugly
yea, my extension got fugly over the time so messy already so so so after after few months or to be exact 3 months plus once again i tink i am bored with it , and the dark clip thingy , the black colour fade and is in silver colour so is like quite obvious also la so i took of my extension hmnnnn sad la hahaha
pls i really kena cheated by the CHINA girl fuck i blogged about that incident here before there are only 110 + pcs oni sell tell me 300 + mah de
my long long extension
bye bye to some china girls hairs :(
and may i present you all my latest hairsytyle which bother me much !!!!! cos i need to blow it like everyday????
actually kenot consider latest la cos cos cos ermmm i went and trim my hair again , maybe a lil shorter and shorter fringe oni la not really much diff
but after looking back at my old pics i was thinking to cut super short again or not??
but after i cut short , to wait it grow is a pain !! then for now this length lagi pain and i dont plan to straighten it walaooo
fan
ok enuff of crapz about my hair maybe i jus too free hahaha holidays ma !!!
besides those crapz about my hair "the boy is coming back soon" in another 48days :)
i have this sudden thought, in our life we spent most of our time waiting agree with me? usually what old people say is "wait to die"
example for me i wait to graduate wait to sleep wait to finish exam wait to become billionair wait to lose weight wait to eat wait to travel and i always look forward for the night time most of the time now
basically i am waiting for anything u can name it sigh
sometimes i am angry with my self alot waiting can be such a pain i jus hate that , things dont go my way i get angry easily especially u are eagerly to talk to that someone is not easy
usually wait i do is wait wait wait no life meh? sigh
is been really hard for me, i get angry or emo when i tot yay finally is nite time but i got so disappointed when i know i still need to wait sigh
now i noe is not easy there are this and that , that makes me feel damn emo and angry i do angry with myself why i tend to be so upset with that why not i jus find something to do rather then get upset and angry
but i have the only nite time sigh
and my hse internet line is behaving like a bitch dc dc dc keep restart the modem damn fucking many times can anyone tell me whats wrong with my line? streamyx problem or modem? cos i need to restart so many times to online
sometimes when i skype , it keeps dc dc and dc arghhh and i am using my bro room to online cos my room too far from the wireless router sometimes it gets too late , and i feel so bad that i actually disturbing my bro if i am using my own room, i dont mind waiting chat early? no because that someone feel he needed to spent times with his friends he got life and he is far far away and can be only connected through internet line sometimes i really feel very very tired fuck
and i am now waiting again FML !
"sometimes when u thing u are strong enough, tough enough to overcome some problem and challenge but no doubt u will fall easily no matter how tough you are"
well now i think i do understand this statement *hmnnnnn*
i hate to be angry i feel so stupid cos i get angry easily do u think that i like to be angry i got so fed up of myself too but but but sometimes i dont really know what is the problem with me haih
p/s : i dont even know what am i crapping cos very emo now :(
okok..i noe i am quite late for this because i jus realize i do feel sad for MICHAEL JACKSON death wtf seriously before this i dont have any feeling for his death is like got nothing to do with me ma i am not his die hard fan or wat but until i search in youtube for his songs "heal the world" the lyrics was so fucking touching
i almost cry :(
goodbye you are the legend for the world and always the "king of pop" R.I.P
finally the weekend is gone and tomoro is monday blue again so now is pre-monday blue sigh
yesterday came back from work straight away finished up my assignments cos others finished it up already and i need to compile all and turn it in asap after i finished it up there are really alot of mistakes because i still have problems with my APA system sigh really sorry girls i noe too much mistakes compare to u all :( but at least i learned my mistakes
will be better with the APA hopefully to survive in HELP damn
i have mission to be accomplish guess wat??? is in my list for so freaking many years people who know me also know what i scare of FAT sigh still haunting me :(
AND ALSO both of my cousins are going to get marry this year end of the year and next year so still got time for me to SLIM down !!!!! arghhhh
i die die this time also must successful i wanna get thin " die also must die pretty" and " although i am not overweight , but i wanna be underweight" FML wtf kill me pls :(
p/s : the feelings i have now is like when i think about foods, i wanna vomit erghhh
the tittle explains it all lazy monday i woke up in the morning .the evil side of me telling me to continue sleep lazy go class la ,8 am ler wtf with the boring lecture sigh but the good side of me telling me that pls go class u only have 2 class in one week then finally i am here in college *claps hands*
currently i am blogging in HELP cc lol while waiting for the frens to finish their stuff and go for lunch free internet and the line quite fast also got class at 2pm to 4 pm later and off to GYM after class
today when i check my HELP mail, to check my statements of results as expected my cgpa will gonna drop drastically oh great thank you and now i am worry gosh have to score in the exam this sem hopefully sigh be optimistic be positive be hardworking definitely cos i still need my loans
p/s :hope for a better week ahead which means no more spending money and have a job for the weekend *finger crossed*
the other day , the boy sent me this picture.. my first reaction was like ..wtf
then he asked me read the descriptions below the pic kevin carter is a very famous photographer and won quite many of the photographer award but he is dead by now such a waste i feel every capture of his photos is very meaningful and seriously i feel it he suicide due to depression, after many people asking him bout the little girl (i google and i noe is a girl wtf ) where about , did she survive or dead? but in my point of view there is noe right or wrong some people jus make the wrong decisions in life u noe? no one knows depression is a very serious matter , for my view of point, as a psychology students depression is something that we must take it seriously , we study and learned about depression, even stress and anxiety kills he choose to end his live obviously i believe that there is no one to support him or help him go through with him when he is depress,when he is under the most critical moment in his life support from friends and family is very important ,nevertheless he is somebody who got fame and talent, support from people, the society take into his consideration approval and support ! sigh
fine la...everyone is having holiday starting from tomoro till sunday , yes because tomoro is labour day 1st of may..but but i got to work, sigh wat to do need to earn extra pocket money , planning to travel to taiwan next year , i noe la is a bit too ealry rite? but ngam ngam wan lar start plannning from now ...save bit by bit ma lots of planning to do seems so busy huh? ok and the other things is that sis they all are going PD yes without me cos i got to work ma , kenot ffk ler cos is a long term job...wooohooo go with them i need to spent money , stay here i can earn money , yay no regrets of staying here and work but but in the other hand i wanted to go with them sigh notice my new header ?? nice a not??? pls say yes cos i love it :)
do you know how much i love air asia??? is damn damn damn love air asia ok ! although the sits is damn uncomfortable , is not spacious , no free foods and drinks , delays but who cares rite? because of air asia everyone can fly ..whoooppieeee.. damn syok wan u noe when u c the air fares is like so so so cheap compare to MAS because of air asia , i get to fly to so many places anticipating for my next trip to bangkok in july and krabi in sept !!!!
i just help my aunts booked their ticket to uk ,LONDON ..because my cousin is there , so free accommodation , they are going for about one month !!!!
guess how much is the air fares included everything??? jeng jeng jeng RM1721 oni wtf .. i check MAS is about RM4000+ ..oh my..so big different ok ...how to fly without air asia?? somemore fly to london ler !!!! dont believe?? let me show u ..
ermmm was planning to follow them la.. sigh go there no need worry place to stay ma.. and i can travel around europe ..can go find friends in uk ler !!!! sighh one of the places that i always wanna go ...i can afford to buy the air ticket but the amount of money to use when i reach there ler??? still need money ma..sigh
my cousin ask me to follow them lar because their english really kenot make it wan...so if i am with them, i can help if anything happen ...bah but really kenot make it lar no money lu...
i remember junyi and me have one similarities , is that we both wanna travel alone like backpack around europe..ermm why alone?? for some reasons lar..ahem ahem...junyi junyi naughty naughty...u bitch. :P now i tink we are few steps closer ?? because now we can fly with air asia !! haha
elene is going to uk too !!!!! in july..to find the bf lor..this lady travel by MAS ler...ahem RM3k plus..ahem everything sponsor by the bf wtf... eh make sure u buy me something from uk !!!! hahahahaha but pls pls hor...dont buy me lingerie k? or or i love uk punya t shirt .. ngek ngek ...
who ever wanna sponsor me??? i should have listed it down in one of my wish lists...:(
p/s: air asia is going to fly to taiwan !!!! yay.. a step nearer for me to travel to taiwan !!!!
p/s: i am not doing some advertorial for air asia, i jus wanna express my love for air asia haha
p/s: i cant seems to put the image shack code here for my pics !!! anyone who is kind enuff to tell me wats wrong ma??
i'm actually a big fans of post secret blog.. because there are really different kind of people in this world , and the reason i love reading that because it some how related to psychology , why i want to blog about post secret? mainly is because i came across this .
photo credits to post secret
this girl i assume, she is really not satisfied with her own body image and seriously i feel that what she wrote there in the photo really is what i have been thinking and it still stuck in my head, and is like forever till i am really satisfied with my body weight..we both have the similar problem..sigh i am fat, it still haunted me ..going to gym sometimes really make me depress why? because there are a lot of pretty , fit and slim AUNTIES and girls around wtf and why am i still fat lar?
counting down for Macau,HK and Zhu Hai trip !!! yay..but before that for this week i am very very very buzy rushing of my assignments ..sigh very very busy ler..and i have been skipping gym ..aiks.. last time i use to go gym 3 times a week now 1 or 2 or din go at all.. damn waste money... well one of the reason of course is lazy lar but but i have been quite busy with class and assignments too !!!!! cant wait for HK ! yay bad news are when i come back from HK i am going to be buzy again with assignments and FINALS :(
hahaha end with my pics in case u all forget how i look..lol
this is the place where i can spill out my thoughts and feelings and of course a place for me to de-stress, i have much passion in photography and traveling ,i am now a psychology student , usually what i do most of the time is blog hopping and now probably here is where i can share my experiences in psychological learning and my daily ramblings :)
ipoh for DIM SUM !!
penang of course is for foods !!
yay
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ipoh for DIM SUM !!
penang of course is for foods !!
yay
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